“Heavenly Father, I don’t want to learn anymore!”
This was my prayer this past Wednesday afternoon.
Nothing seemed to be going right. In the past month we have gotten a new home, new job, new preteen, annoying financial troubles, new schools, and some mild medical surprises — and this week it almost broke me.
I know we go through hard things to learn.
I know it could be so much worse.
I know I have a lot to be thankful for.
But Wednesday afternoon I was feeling broken and told the Lord I didn’t want to learn anymore. I wanted something to be easy. I wanted to feel like something was working out as it “should”. (Or at least how I thought it should)
Well, nothing was “fixed” after my prayer—but I heard Him reassure me that I could keep going.
I needed patience and faith. I can do it all. I am learning in order to become something better than before.
The next few days went better. I was renewed and my perspective was different.
Then tonight, Kamryn was feeling blue. We were talking and she said, “I wish I could just skip this part between kid and adult and just be done with it!” And I realized that I knew how that felt. I knew what it felt like to say “I don’t want to do this hard thing.” I was able to reassure her that there is good happening to her even when it is hard. We could connect because I understood how she felt to say “I’m done learning. Let’s skip this part.”
I’m thankful the Lord didn’t stop teaching me when I asked Him to this week. I’m thankful He has ways that are better than mine. I’m grateful for this life that is designed with hard things and uncomfortable things because that means we can progress. It brings me back to one of my favorite quotes from “The Greatest Showman”:
“Comfort is the enemy of progress.”
Thank the Lord that He always keeps that in mind and still grants us mercy when we feel like we might break. He is able to give us trials, strengthen us, and change us into something greater than before. What a magnificent being He is.
“As you act on those words [‘Hear Him’] and listen to Him, remember, joyfully and reverently, that the Savior loves to restore what you cannot restore; He loves to heal wounds you cannot heal; He loves to fix what has been irreparably broken; He compensates for any unfairness inflicted on you; and He loves to permanently mend even shattered hearts.”-Elder Renlund
How did you #hearhim this week? Comment below!